ElectricVacation

some kind of getaway

Did you know the stuff inside us loses density? I found out at the start of the year—first from an ad on the subway, next from the thin lips of a doctor.

They both told me to take supplements but I spend the money on bus fare to your apartment and extra loosies on parade days and waxed bottles of homemade liquor from corner store regulars.

When I crush empty milk cartons at the end of the week, I wonder if they know that they are insufficient, that I am deficient, that my mother’d said I would grow up strong but I am here disintegrating.

picture in picture

picture in picture

What music can I not regret louder than?

First ever casting call tomorrow.

Being a human is weird.

Getting offered a fair hourly wage for something I was doing for free right when I was starting to feel under-appreciated and money-stressed = 

Like how once someone told me that when you get that random ringing in your ears it is actually the last time you are ever going to hear that particular pitch—how it is that sound leaving you. I don’t remember who told me that, but I got older and found it wasn’t true. The times when my ears ring still feel like dark and spacious vacuums. These times you will still find me at my quietest, trying to relish and memorize, trying to fight the strangest twinge of loneliness, of anticipated missing. Inevitably trying ignore the counting up of every sound that’s left me, of trains of thought that leave me wondering if I could even recognize a thing once it is truly gone.

polycultures:

alexstrangler:

Who remembers #lizziemcguire?!! #hilaryduff @taylorstreettattoo (at Taylor Street Tattoo)

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polycultures:

alexstrangler:

Who remembers #lizziemcguire?!! #hilaryduff @taylorstreettattoo (at Taylor Street Tattoo)

what